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Sherlynn
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NUS Faculty of Science
Life Sciences
Friday, July 07, 2006
12:29 AM
okies wow. i'm online after a few days off and the computer just screwed up on me which is why i'm blogging at this hour. okies. anyways, the shopping trip on youth day was GREAT. i had so much fun. definitely looking forward to more trips like these but i guess it will have to wait. those who wanna read abt the shopping trip please visit gen's blog. i'm too lazy to blog abt it. hahahah.
been reaching home late for the past few days. and for the next week at least. rehearsing for our stepping down ceremony. which is kinda saddening. to know that our term of office is coming to an end in just 6days. to know that the shiny and eye catching badge will not be worn on the left side of our blouses. to know that the council room will no longer be called ours. to know that the times spent with the rest of the councilors will be greatly cut short because we're all in different classes. and though the ceremony will start off on a HIGH note i bet many of us will be LOW right at the beginning la. only to find ourselves trotting into the CC with red and watery eyes. eeks the thought of it. and the thought of the most cruel sentence on earth will be coming soon. "councilors, please remove ur badges". MYGOODNESS. i tink many of us will just DIE. hahah.
later in the day will be disastrous because MOST of the results WILL BE RETURNED to us. like bio everything and chem sect C. mygoodness. my math was enough of a shock already. i felt like a damn loser. it really was an easy paper. seriously i was super disappointed with myself. and so was my mum i tink. like WHAT THE HELL. was i BLIND OR WHAT. but i guess i can't always dwell in my own unhappiness. i've to pick myself up and walk on. final destination is always the Alevels. the thought of it coming so fast makes me afraid. very afraid. i hope and i hope that my bio is up to my expectations and my chem too. i'm pretty sure i won't do well this blocks. the problem now is how am i going to answer to my parents. and most imptly how am i going to answer to myself. i've disappointed myself once beginning of this week. i dun want it twice. thrice. 4 times.
trying to settle down to study the same old syllabus again really terrifies me. don't even have time to take a breather. yes now i'm taking a breather but i wish it to be longer. i'm so freaking bored studying the same old thing over and over again! can't imagine myself taking Alevels in another few more mths down the road. how to study now.. i can't concentrate. i lose my focus. which means i'm dead. nvm. things will work out eventually hopefully. no. i will MAKE it work out.
aiyar i just feel everything to do with my results will be screwed. i feel screwed up. high expectations? yes perhaps.
but i'm glad i still have friends around me pushing me on though.
and and and i don't want teachers coming up to me saying i'm not performing up to their expectations, or saying i seriously need to focus and study. seriously i don't want. i will feel darn discouraged.
arh whatever. college day tmr. sian. ushering again. just standing around doing nothing. but nvm. last event. i guess i will miss wearing the blazer and everything.
okies i'm off now!
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